想同大家分享一個消息, 就係, 我8月開始, 就重返職場, 因為我已經搵到一份新工了....
其實正確些來講, 我並冇搵過工, 呢份工係自己來搵我的, 何解呢? 因為呢份工係一年零四個月前將我 laid off 嘅公司嘅工!!
記得舊年四月頭某一日, 一朝早返到公司, 我阿頭即刻關門, 同我講呢一個裁員嘅消息, 雖然我從來未試過被裁員, 但因為集團在之前幾個月已經出現左第一round裁員, 所以大家有心理準備, 隨時有一刻來個第二round, 任何一個人都有呢個機會。當日被laid off雖然唔開心, 但唔知何解, 心情在幾日之內已經平服。今時今日, lay off呢樣野並不樣衰, 被 lay off又如何, 世界咁大, 總有我生存嘅空間, 東家唔打, 打西家啦。
經過呢1年零4個月嘅補習生涯, 睇盡人生百態, 好彩, 並唔係話讚自己, 本人都算好有責任心, 所以補習工作, 基本上家長係對我有好大需求。可是, 有工作做並唔代表搵到錢。
回想番過去呢16個月嘅生活, 我好喜歡能夠教育小朋友, 能夠見證佢地大部分, 都在學業上有不少嘅進步, 有好大嘅滿足感。但.....在報酬上, 根本係吃力不討好, 每日在短時間內, 奔波於不同嘅學生家中, 體力嚴重透支, 身心非常疲乏, 賺不多太多錢之餘, 花於影印、紙張、交通上嘅開支亦很多, 而且有很多次, 因為一日內講太長時間說話, 喉嚨好痛。收入又唔穩定, 考試期間好多家長想你勁加堂；但考試完畢就放個長假, 我嘅收入極之唔穩定, 而我嘅情緒亦都長期處於擔心嘅狀態。
由於舊公司有人走, 佢地想搵人來救命, 所以搵番我。我考慮左一輪, 應唔應該同錢作對? 好快我就決定唔會同錢作對!! laid off我嘅人遠在總部London, 但我每日合作嘅人並非佢地；雖然佢地開出嘅條件並不特別吸引, 但肯定比起我現在嘅工作情況好好多。
我想自己開補習社嘅理想並冇改變, 返回舊公司後, 應該可以比我有更多時間去好好計劃和籌備。呢份工並非一份我會做到退休嘅工作, 睇過呢個世界最真實嘅一面後, 我已經學得更懂未雨籌謀, 為錢, 為將來, 我希望用最短時間賺多個錢在身；然後再去實現自己嘅夢想。
說到底, 有好好計劃同籌謀, 才有更大的成功的機會。我唔想做一個只有一個勇字在心口的人......
多謝大家又聽我講左一番廢話, 哈哈哈! 祝大家都生活愉快, 工作順利
****** I'm trying to translate what I have written above into English, haha **********
I'd like to share some news with you all - that is, I have found a new job and will be returning to work full time again in early August.
I haven't been looking for any jobs for such a long time already. I simply had no motivation at all to look for a full time job. I don't know why. Probably it's because of my laziness, or I was being too busy with tutorials, or simply, I have been discouraged too much during the job searching and interview process in the past one year or so that I totally have given up on searching for any jobs in this so-called job market.
This new job that I have just got is exactly the same one which I lost a year and four months ago. How ridiculous! 16 months ago, I was laid off by them - it had nothing to do with my job performance; it wasn't because the company was losing money or encountering a huge drop in benefits. It was simply because those fxxxing management people wanted a nice book in their accounting. They cut me off in order to cut cost and made the company accounting looked good. But now, I'm returning.... because a veteran colleague has gone for some other better opportunities and they badly need someone to replace him.
Talking back, my supervisor and me had been well prepared for a lay off to take place at any time. In fact, it's the "second round" of so-called "global layoff" which took place in my ex-compnay (and now my company again). When the "first round" took place a few months earlier, some veteran colleague who had worked for about 15 years were laid off. When this happened, one could imagine anything could happen to any staff members like myself - although I was only a small potato.
I still remember very well what happened on that day in early April last year. Honestly, I was pretty sad on the day when I was laid off. I have never been laid off in my work life but I don't know why. I thought I handled it quite well. I was already feeling quite ok about three days later. Layoff isn't such a big thing NOW - and so what if it happens to me. This isn't the end of the world. The world is big, and there must be somewhere in which I can live and survive.
I have considered for a few days whether to take this job offer. I love tutoring kids, but the reality is - being a private tutor is after all only a freelance job. Yes, it gives me lots of freedom and I have more free time to do whatever I want when I don't tutor. But at the same time, I'm earning much less money than before. This job is very insecure and has no protection at all. When I'm sick and can't tutor, I'll have to cancel class and that means I won't earn any money at all. Also, technically speaking, I don't have any holiday at all. I tutor seven days a week, although I don't tutor many hours a day. And when exams are approaching, parents of my students want me to tutor more; but once the exams are over, they'll not have classes for me for maybe two or three weeks. This is so terrible for me.
To make it short, I'm returning to the old company simply for money and good benefits. Apart from money, there are also the fringe benefits and the paid annual leaves. How wonderful now that I can have some paid annual leaves ---- and I can have them in low season, hahaha
!!! Well, I'm already thinking when to travel again....
Thinking it in a more positive way, I have learned a large deal in the past 16 months. I haven't given up my dream of opening up a tutorial center. Returning to the old firm allows me to save more money, to have more time for myself, and to plan better for my future. It helps me to settle down a bit now, as I really have worn out a lot - both physically and mentally - in the past 16 months from running around tutoring different kids in different areas. There have been sooooo many times that so many friends asked what has happened to me - why I am looking so slim, or too slim.
I don't know for how long I will and I can work for this company this time. But so what? I'll never know what will happen tomorrow anyway, so I don't wanna bother myself with so many UNKNOWNS. What I can only do is to do my work as well as I can, and save as much money as I can.
Haha, thanks guys and gals for having listened so much rubbish that I have said here. I wish all of you a happy life and a successful career. Enjoy your life in your ups and downs, no matter what. Take care
....個天黑得好嚇鬼, 我真係驚去到Alcobaça時係落大雨, 咁就慘!
